UnburdenedSelf™

“Autistic burnout is pervasive, long-term (3+ months) exhaustion, loss of function, and reduced tolerance to stimulus.

It’s described as being the result of chronic life stress, and a mismatch of expectations and abilities without adequate supports.”

I’ve been in this Burnout state for so long, it’s suffocating, like a relentless fog that refuses to lift. It doesn’t just feel like the norm anymore—it is my norm, an oppressive shadow stitched into every moment.

The sheer, overwhelming effort required just to exist each day is not only exhausting but feels like a cruel joke, intensifying the burnout with every breath. Waking up feels like a punishment, facing another day where even the simplest tasks drain me more than they should.

The boundaries between depression, anxiety, apathy, fear, exhaustion—they’re not just blurred; they’re non-existent. They’ve merged into this chaotic, tangled mess that is Autistic Burnout, a vortex pulling me deeper, making it impossible to distinguish one emotion from another.

It’s like being trapped in a body and mind that aren’t mine. But even if they were, they wouldn’t be of any use because they don’t work. They’re broken in ways that words can’t fix.

So really, what’s the fucking point? There’s no escape, no respite, just an endless loop of trying and failing, until trying feels pointless too.